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Thursday, November 20, 2008

Posted by Lycan

TPRAWKS ended and the real start of Asia Conference is today for me. But I don't feel like going anymore. Sorry to my good good assistant Cell Group Leader, Daphanie. Anyway! I've got the pictures of TPRAWKS. Shall put them here. Grabbed them from Tiffany's blog heh.

No I didn't bother to make my hair so it looks stupid, and my face looks spastic lol. Hello cute girl :) Hahaha.Left-Right: Jason,Michelle(PL),Tiffany, me. I know I look stupid there. The cameraman even asked me if I was in the picture because I was standing so far from Tiffany. Duh. I'm attached. I may get high at times but I never forget the fact that I'm still attached, and certain stuff are inappropriate to do. At least I don't jump up the stage,get called by Gurmit as a backup dancer and flirt openly and public-ly with some guy. That's inappropriate of one that is attached. Maybe that's your life. That's who you want to be. The kind of life that you enjoy,dancing around and partying with other guys and getting high. So what if I'm assuming. I'm assuming, on grounds that you looked happy and that you're enjoying yourself when dancing with that guy. This is your life girl. Don't tell me I have your heart because when somebody has your heart, you don't only shake your head or keep playing with the water when he's trying to talk to you and look at you. You run up and hug him and tell him how much you miss him and how much your sis controls you and disallows you of going out with him. You don't ignore him and party so much when you tell him that you're afraid of him leaving you, like what happened in your dream. Why did I even believe you. I know why.

I was too naive.

And trust me to be trying to choreograph a dance for Chris Brown-Forever for our 6th month anniversary,thinking of possible steps everyday,asking around for good choreographies. That day looks like it will never come. Because our 4th month was pure shit. I don't mind living for your purpose, as long as you make it feel that it's worth it. It's the exact same thing, you not minding to do things for the family as long as you're appreciated and stuff. Yes the all-so-great saying's that when you love somebody, you do things for them and require nothing in return. But it always pwns when you're affirmed and when you have a feeling that you're taken seriously. You can go live your life. Be a Miss Independent, for you know you don't need me. I'm probably just something to help you last over Os,when your sister's more strict with you and you can't go out to party and stuff. I'm just a form of entertainment to you. Don't tell me that you're serious about me, when you can tell me that your mum only allowed you to come down for 20 minutes and yet after that you're out with your ballet mates. What an excuse. Don't tell me that you're busy and everything. For if you bothered even the slightest bit, you would try to spare time for me. I'm just somebody that doesn't matter,now that Os are over and you've had your fun with me. I'm a burden to you in fact, pulling you down from having fun and chaining you down from getting back with friends and partying. Jennifer Hudson's Spotlight still playing now. I've found an extract.

[Extract]
Is this a relationship, fulfilling your needs, as well as mine?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah...
Or is this just my sentence, am I doing time?
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah...
If this is love, real, real love, then I'm staying no doubt
Is that you? Is that you? Is that you? Yeah...
But if I'm just love prisoner, then I'm busting out
Is that you? Is that you? Yeah...

Maybe this is your song. Whatever. You've changed so much that you're a stranger to me now. Your image in my mind's so distorted that it's like I don't know you anymore. It's like,

We never did know each other before.

Reasons Are Lies.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

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