Reasons Are Lies.

The brotherhood. It almost seems like just a casual friendship, something we'll fuel whenever we feel like making the time for it. And today Park sms-ed me, saying I should treat cos I'm working. Logic-wise? I don't see any. What's the deal between me working and having to treat? Is money that important that it's the only thing possible to keep this group going? I have a good piece of mind to tell everyone of you what I've been thinking on the way back. I know it's going to sound bad but I am straightforward and all of you know what you know about me.

Jovi-Stop procrastination. Start doing what you need to do. Don't allow procrastination to cause your absence of the outings.

Park-Exams are important to you. I know that. Time management yes? And don't keep asking me treat, because I can't afford to be keeping the group together with my own hard-earned money.

Esmond-I thank you for trying to make time for the group. Girls are probably the biggest distraction.

Henry-Ever since you've been with YL we've been seeing less of each other. I think you know that too. Either you're with her, or you're doing your own things. Studying, project-ing, just stuffs. I really miss those times when me you and Jon went for supper at prata shops, sleepovers plus DotA at your house.

Jon-I think I'm probably the closest to you right now. Thanks for gaming with me and keeping me company, and everything. I love 1-on-1 sessions with you.

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And I didn't order you to play just now. I never meant my jioing-s to be orders to you. I have no idea but I'm really kind of breaking down while doing this post.

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Shaun-Poly is getting the better of you I know. You're busy studying too. Thanks for trying to make time also. 1-on-1 sessions are pretty fun with you too. Thanks for accompanying me out today.

Kaiwei-I have no idea of what you're doing. Totally. You rate your things in front of the group. Only times when the full group is up for outings will you then make your presence. Does knowing what you're going to do out with us matter that much than the fact that you're going to be with us? Maybe it does to you. That explains why for the current situation.

For everybody I guess it matters whatever the group is going to do, only then will they make their presence. I'm fine with that. To me it doesn't matter whatever I'm going to do. Even it's a fucking gay sit-at-the-beach-and-listen-to-the-waves-and-lepak outing. Things have changed. No I don't feel like playing pool, you all go ahead-s. No I've got no money for outings so I'll just stay put at home-s. I've watched that movie and I'll save my money and stay home-s. It's everyone's choices, and if you've chose to choose whatever you like, it's not within my control, and I don't want to force the group to be together. If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

I'm sure everybody have felt it. It's drifting apart. Huge time. I can't help but cry uncontrollably while doing this post.

I know I'm in the wrong too. I've been working, and in the past my ex-es have been in between us too. My attitude was wrong at times too.

I don't know how the fuck I can get us back to the times in the past, but I know I really want to, and I'd love to. The times when we'd hug each other when we see each other, times we'd say gui ling gao together, times we'd laugh at each other's retardedness. Times when we were just ourselves. To make it clearer. Times when we were really in love with each other.

I've a song, maybe just use a little of your golden time to listen to this.